March 03, 2007

Phrasebase Quotes

These Quotes say everything there is to say about Phrasebase... :P It's so funny that with so much going on you can always find help if you need it... with anything! Everyone is so good about taking and giving. The motto seems to be a quote I found there:

Knowledge enriches those who receive without impoverishing those who give. Anyway::

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Hello and Good Day!

I would like to learn Slovak (also Spanish).
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My name is Khalid from LIbya.
I wonder how we say "this is me" not "this is i" thoigh it is unaccepable.
I love languages. I speak Arabic and English and I am interested to learn Italian and French.
I like to meet people from all over the world.
meeting people and social communication are good and helpful means to improve ones, language. Do you agree?

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Ya'll be trippin', yo! If da think da man will let dis thing go down, you're in need of a hona-hona in yo crib!


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You-Japanese, Norwegian, Finnish, Swedish; I - Hebrew, Russian, English
I will be happy to teach you Hebrew, Russian or English (I'm a professional English teacher, the author of an English grammar manual), if you can help me with Japanese, Swedish, Finnish or Norwegian (beginner's level).
you can contact me at: redskates@yahoo.com
Irene
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Ewet Hati, saolasan, bende sana bir yeni çay hazırladım, oradadır, git bak :D gine gel oralara!
hemde ewet benim kardeşlerim var bir tanede bacım var!
Benden sonraki kişi evlenmek zorundadır! :D :p ;)

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En aquest joc practicarem el participi d'un verb i el seu gerundi. :)
Per exemple:

parlar - to speak
participi: parlat
gerundi: parlant
Una vegada que hàgiu escrit el participi i el gerundi heu de proposar un altre verb
Ok, començo doncs. :)
El meu verb és: jugar - to play

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명지[明智] <명사> 밝은 지혜.
ok, next word : 다람쥐 - Daramajwee - a squirrel ^^
so the next syllable is 쥐
ps. i'm enjoying this game..:) and thanks for all the explanation edwoodseo

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Indonesisch lernen

Hast du Lust Indonesicsch zu lernen?
Ich kann dir Indonesisch beibringen. Wir können skype benutzen, so dass du die Ausprache lernen kannst. Falls du Interesse hast, melde dich bei mir.

Viele Grüße

Siregar

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Work Disaster!

So, I know I had today scheduled off. I know because originally I needed two days off in February, and one in March. So, I worked all the Saturdays in January. Then, I had a February off for San Antonio, and one off for State Tournament.

As it turns out, I didn't need the day off for State Tournament, but I did need a Saturday in March for Nationals. And, as it turns out, I already had that day off by default.

So I absolutely know I had today off, because the whole time I was negotiating to get my second March Saturday off, for Rome, I kept having to explain why I couldn't simply swap my default March day.

But somewhere in all of this either I had to get my dates confused, or Roz had to get my requested dates confused, or something... because this morning they called. O.O And said I was on the schedule.

And they were all like... Oh, it's no big deal... And I know they believe me that this was a mistake, and it probably isn't going to hurt me or anything, but...

1.) I really want to know how this happened!

and

2.) I feel like I've burned away my 'get out of jail free' card over this. It's all fine and good to be able to mess up once without repercussion, but once you do you feel so vulnerable!

March 02, 2007

Multilingual Fun

Alright, so on Phrasebase.com, they have these little "Cafés" they've opened up for language families. I skipped the Slavic Café for obvious reasons, but I peeked around in the Romance and Germanic ones.

It makes it very obvious how close the Romance languages are, especially in contrast to the Germanic. Although Spanish is my distant second language next to my English, and Italian is like my fifth, I was able to follow the conversation in the Romance Café quite easily. I suppose my Latin also helped, but I was still pleasantly surprised.

In the Germanic Café, on the other hand, I quickly learned to content myself just to guess the language. Even with my native language included, and even with two years of German and a pathetic but functional sort of Norwegian at my command, I was often lost.

Anyhow, it's interesting.

http://www.phrasebase.com/forum/read.php?TID=18310
http://www.phrasebase.com/forum/read.php?TID=18645

Awkward


http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/29852906/

I'm going to have to agree with Billie here, and second her nomination of this piece as "Best Illustration in the World".

Just for the record: Contrary to what my blog would have you believe, some of my thoughts do fall in the spectrum between deep reflection and sheer randomness. However these thoughts are mostly about eating, sleeping, work, racquetball, and schoolwork and I don't usually post them. :P Just thought I'd clear that up.

Honestly, though. Great picture. LOVE the facial expressions/body language. It's not easy to do that with alligators and wildebeests. Spectacular.

March 01, 2007

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February 25, 2007

Genocide Stories

The other day I took a bath and read most of "First they Killed my Father". It was a good thing I was in the bathtub, because I cried a lot. It's so horrible that when I had to close it, my mind would change the story. I'd make up alternate endings and middles; I'd imagine that all the magical things that happen in fairy tales happened to Loung and her family. Sometimes I'd just imagine someone coming and giving them food; a big tin of salt pork and sugar.

But none of this happened, of course, because it is a true story. A girl my own age dies alone, unable to have even her final wish; to be buried near her family, and be with them again. Infants are slaughtered beside their mothers, two months before the end of the war. Loung's arms and legs are like those of a skeleton, but her belly and feet are bloated. She takes her thumb and makes little dents in the ballooning flesh, and watches as they slowly re inflate.


They did everything right. Their father had been a monk, and he used his experience to gain a fair position for a previous city dweller. He could teach them all to farm, and had many other skills. From the beginning, they lied and pretended to be poor peasants. Loung's "Pa" was such a good father to her, letting her sit on his lap while he told her stories or tried to explain the world to her, even until the end. But eventually the Khmer Rouge find out that he had been in the civil service, and they kill him.


I'm reading this not long after watching "Hotel Rwanda", another horrible Genocide story. I'm making up excuses for why I can't tear myself away. I need to read this for school, I tell myself, although there are ten other books I could have chosen. This relates to my IP theme, I tell myself, although the comparatively cheery "Waiting for Snow in Havana" did just as well. I want to make a difference, I tell myself, though I know I can/will do nothing.


With these feeble excuses, I endure these stories. I think about them for weeks. I rewind. I read the worst passages again and again until I have no more tears for them. I think I'm forcing myself to see these things because they make me feel something that deserves to be felt.

Genocide needs to be felt, to be acknowledged. More than that, it needs to be ended. But I can feel it myself.

February 24, 2007

Pirates are Universal



February 20, 2007

La Primavera

La primavera ha fiorito come un fiore. È possibile che l'inverno già si è concluso.

The winter broke. You could almost hear it's grip shatter as the the ice cracked, sliding in plates over the wet ground. The snow melted quickly into little rivulets that bled down streets and city sidewalks like rainwater in a heavy storm.

We had to replace the battery on my Ford Contour; it didn't quite survive the winter. We revved it up for the first time and I had to take a long drive up Clayton to get it ready. The sun seemed very bright and the air was warm and still.

The birds were our first hint of the coming spring; chirping weeks ago in the early morning hours. Their songs were almost indistinguishable from the squeaking of the Contour, but I heard them nonetheless. It was dark when I drove to school then; now the sun is shining. Dawn comes not long after I wake up. The sun rises as I put on my shoes and step out into the day. The walk to the pit is well lit, and I know longer need to wear double gloves to retain the slightest feeling in my fingers.

Yes, the spring comes. It has bloomed like a flower. Winter's hold is broken, I know it. The snow has lingered resiliently, but I know it's near death. In the earliest morning there is a heavy frost; the meltwater freezes overnight. But the thin ice it forms has all the strength taken out of it. This ice doesn't mean anything. It doesn't threaten anymore.


The snow melts, with it the memories that linger in the wintertime. Beside the fire, in the warm darkness of the house, underneath the covers, memories linger in the shadows. The heart freezes in the depths of winter, kept from neither affection or love but simply from moving. Hopes and dreams slide to a slow, silent stop.


Once the future didn't scare me at all. Now I am terrified of it. But what can I do? The spring comes. I can only try to face it bravely. Change comes, and quickly. Had I made a prediction for today,

Six months ago... I would have said that this would be a spring without Tidbit, a spring of memories of a little brown dog that frolicked in the spring grass and loved to sleep in sunlight falling through glass.

A year ago... I would have said that this would be another spring of blind joy, an ease in everything, and high hopes for a summer of endless possibility. I would have said that not a day would pass without talking to Stian and to Austin, my heart's best friends...

Two years ago... I would have said that this spring I'd have a thousand more friends, be happy and social, well liked, with great grades and an ever maturing soul. With any luck, I'd be RPing, at least a bit.

Five years ago... I would have said that by now, I'd be a pillar of maturity and perfection. I'd be the admin of a thriving LOTR RPG board, know a ton of Elvish, maybe some other languages if I got bored. By 16, I'd be ACCOMPLISHED, damn it... Capable of anything...



The memoirs of a teenager make a terrible story. We who are young see every day as a beginning or an ending. We will never consent to simply being.

But it may be that we are right after all, that each day is a beginning and an ending. Perhaps each day something dies, and perhaps each day something new is born. And in a year, with the coming of the spring...


I should say, "I think I'm just really tired. Or really bored. Or both lolz..."
I should say, "I have no idea what I'm trying to say :P"

But I do. I know exactly what I'm trying to say. I'm just not sure how to say it.
Forgive my ineloquence... And my word creation... ;)

February 19, 2007

Vinterferien

http://ellenmargrethe.blogspot.com/

Ellen Sier:

Nå må jeg bare si at:

* Det er 22 dager til vinterferien!!
* 58 dager til vi reiser til London!!
* 140 dager til siste skoledag!! :)



Elindomiel Sier:

Jeg har vinterferien nå. :D



I'm so mean. But yeah, ours is shorter, and over today, in fact. I've only done half my homework. But I have a lot. Gah. :(

Check out the Decoy Blogs...

http://elindomiel.livejournal.com/

http://www.xanga.com/Elindomiel

The live Journal looks a lot better, for some reason. Interests on Live Journal:

39: arabic, aramaic, blogging, boating, camping, canoeing, clam chowder, computers, emailing, fantasy, finnish, garlic, george rr martin, german, girl scouts, hiking, history, italian, japanese, languages, latin, linguistics, lobster, lord of the rings, mythology, norwegian, orange sherbet, packages in the mail, pen-pals, pita bread and hummus, quiznos, rp-ing, scandinavia, scandinavians, seafood, spanish, traveling, video games, writing.

Wow Liisa!

http://blogit.ts.fi/extreme/2007/01/27/aina-valmiina/

I can't really read this, but I'm guessing it's one of her articles. She's so amazing!

For a really wild guess, I'd say this MIGHT be her joke article, because of the quotes in the beginning. I can only make out like 9 words in the whole piece, though!

It's so neat to find her site like that. She's also in the banner, second from the right.

February 18, 2007

Heladas Alturas

I've just started reading "El Reino del Dragon de Oro", by Isabel Allende. It's the first time I've read a book in another language, on my own time, where I didn't already know the story.

Reading in Spanish is a little odd. Reading in any language where your reading proficiency isn't above average is weird. For Gwen: It's like that essay we read in Trieschmanns class about writing. How terrible to write the way that poor woman did.

"When you write," she wrote, "You lay out a line of words. You wield it..."

She goes on to describe exploring the world by picking at it, inch by inch, with your line of words. Theres a feeling of darkness, as if anything outside of these specific words is somehow nonexistent, as if it comes into being at the exact moment you encounter it, and for no other purpose.

At any rate, reading in Spanish is like that. In English, I read a whole page almost at once. I read the lines individually, but my mind jumps. I see "smile" halfway down the page and I feel a sort of happiness, or bitterness, as it may seem, spread across the scene. I can skim down a page looking for a passage and get a basic idea of what's going on.

In Spanish it's different. I attack a line of words. I understand. I don't have to use a dictionary or a grammar tool. I guess at the words I don't know, most of them cognates. My mind quickly bridges gaps and recognizes new meanings for "Tarea" and "Helado". But it's still slower going than reading in English, by a long ways.

Dil Bahadur and his mentor-guy have been climbing the alps FOREVER, without a glimpse of another human being. I am beginning to tire of them and their plight. Each detail of how they use the fur of the yak and what they eat and how they find shelter are interesting and then wearying for the energy they take to decipher. It's subtle; word by word you don't notice it. But after pages...

So after climbing these mountains for what could surely be broken off into a separate novel, (I'm on page 10), I see a beautiful 'line of words'.

"Luego de escalar montanyas por varios dias, subiendo a heladas alturas, llegaron a Czenthan Dzong, el monestario fortificado de los antiguos lamas que inventaron la forma de lucha cuerpo a cuerpo llamado Tao-Shu."

Yes! A monastery! A fortified Monastery! That means safety, maybe warmth! It means new charectors! I'm done with Dil and the Lama mas Viejo. :D

And my heart is crushed, more so because my eyes have no chance to preview, because word by word the truth is painfully revealed. The monastery has been abandoned for generations, ever since a terrible earthquake.

This is no surprise to our old friends Dil and Lama. It's not meant to be a crushing blow to the spirit of the reader. But like "Que Hace el Pez?", everything has more meaning when it takes a little longer to understand. It's all more profound.

:'( Quiero un monestario fortificado de antiguos lamas a salvarme de las Heladas Alturas...

February 14, 2007

Um... Alright...

Interesting text message today. Especially considering my blog post just a few days ago. Talk about mixed feelings: (In order)

1. Nani-nani? What's this?

2. A text message? Who would text message me? Liisa?

3. Sent me a card? I hate that girl... I didn't even think of sending her anything, she'll be making up holidays if...

4. .... ..... Stian?

5. Is this date correct?

6. Well it's in English, it must be for me.

7. It also has my name on it...

8. Eh... Have you split your head open?!?

9. What do you want from me!?!

10. I mean, it's a nice thought...

11. But, why?!?

12. Can't you leave me alone?

13. On today of all days...

14. -gla i'deg-

15. Bah, what's with you, anyway? What are you playing at?

16. I'm so confused... :(

The Death of Something

Yeah, Nova's Middle Earth closed.

It's not like it was a big deal. There was no rping there since 2006, and nothing but the odd OOC post for months and months. Besides, I was the last person to join the board and probably posted about 100 times. No big deal, no big surprise, but the death of LOTR Rping was so gradual, and so slow, that I never really, really felt it.

Ah, well. It's small enough now. A small enough distance to fall. But I still felt it.

I kind of liked it being there, even if it was a mockery of itself.

It made me who I am.

February 13, 2007

Mountain in Tibet

February 12, 2007

"Boys Suck"

Ha! I can say it!

I guess this means I can finally admit to myself that they all suck, that they lie, that they don't really mean they'll be your friend forever.

It means they'll call you names they have no right to and not even bother to respond to your email.

It means I shouldn't waste any more time on them.

Alright, you mean nothing to me now. Or little enough, as little as you ever will... The flower of an undeveloped heart.

February 11, 2007

Et Språk Er Aldri Nok!

Un homme qui parle trois langues est trilingue.
Un homme qui parle deux langues est bilingue.
Un homme qui ne parle qu´une langue est anglais.

Wer fremde Sprachen nicht kennt, weiß nichts von seiner eigenen.

Bir dil bir insan, iki dil iki insan.

Luftputefartøyet mitt er fullt av ål

(Guess what I've been doing? :P And it's been extremely busy at school.)

¡Una lengua nunca es suficiente!

January 30, 2007

Steven in Math Class

Steven Hsieh: "Mrs. Dolan, can I tell a Math Related joke? What's an owl's favourite subject?"

Mrs. Dolan: "Math...?"

Steven Hsieh: "Owlgebra!"

January 29, 2007

Elendomiel, Educational Cartoons

I haven't been able to post much. Who can guess why? Yeah... I've cleaned my room, it's absolutely amazing. Nicer than it's been since I moved here eight years ago. And today, for instance, I got home from school, helped with groceries, made a big pot of hobo stew, called Stephanie and Christy and coordinated the AP Comparitive Project. Then I went and got a tooth filled, took the hobo stew to the Moores, stayed there with them for two and a half hours helping them bathe, play with, and put to bed their four children, and waited for the numbness to wear off (it went all the way up to my eyes this time; I think they used too much...). I got home with ten minutes to spare before the Chemistry Study Session. O.o... Life is hectic.

At any rate, I made a few scans. One is a page from a set of 'cryptic' papers I uncovered from the exhumed 'archives' of my room. They're all written in a half rp-elvish, half made up language. I think I can date them to about sixth grade. What's notable about this one is that it's the first recorded usage of my now universal username: Elindomiel. Notice the funny spelling... and that it pops up once alongside many repititions of Elenmirwen... probably my first Elvish name. :P (Elenmirwen would be very straightforward Elvish for "Star Jewel Maiden".


My second scans are some cartoons Stephanie and I made for our school. Yeah, they're a little random and childish, but they're mildly amusing if you know the people involved. Or maybe just if you're me or Stephanie.


Himmel Donner Wetter

Sort of.

Alright, we're having an "Alberta Clipper". For my non-American readers, Alberta is in Canada, so basically it means we get their nice cold air for a while. Yay! That's good, it means February will be real winter this year (You never know, sometimes it snows in March, or even April... othertimes it's swimming weather by then). It also means we can expect a few more good snow storms.

Right now? Well, we had a really nice, sunny day... probably 60 degrees. Almost freaky, but we've had signifcantly worse this year. And then the cold moved in. It's nasty, disagreeable cold, with incredibly bright sun and dry air. It promises no snow.

Other news? Given the title of this post, it better be depressing.

The IP Project.

There's a good one.

What can I say? Can I hate my 'friends'? No, I can only say to myself "I wouldn't have done so." and mean it. And know it. Maybe it's because I am a Christian, or maybe I just have moral fiber, or maybe I have a spine. Who knows. I wouldn't have done it.

I firmly believe that they didn't do any of this out of malice. Or to hurt me in particular. No, it's just all so petty. A disagreement, a lack of honesty. Why stop at one when you can burn three people in order to get your perfect group? And make sure to take care of yourself first. High school is a dog eat dog world, after all. You have to keep your head above water.

Can I hate them? No. I always tell my mom, that you cannot truly blame people for being weak. And if there is one thing I try not to be, it is a hypocrite. There, you are all weak. And I do not hate you. I do not even truly blame you. And I'll probably never mention this again.

But I wouldn't have done it. And I cling to that...

January 18, 2007

Cönversational Nörwegian

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQvVVsq6vYY

Yeah... Billie emailed me this. Thought I'd find it amusing.

I especially like the Umlauts over the O's. Not only are they completely decorational, they're not even accurate! :)

January 16, 2007

Too much Coffee for Austrian Jewelers.

http://today.reuters.com/news/articlenews.aspx?type=oddlyEnoughNews&storyid=2007-01-16T233008Z_01_L15321402_RTRUKOC_0_US-AUSTRIA-JEWELLER-THEFT.xml&src=rss

Overboard Autobiography

So, our genius Health Teacher had us write half page Autobiographies. Honestly, I need no encouragement in writing an Autobiography. Big mistake on his part... I think I went a bit overboard. (We were instructed not to mention the obvious)


Autobiography

I was born in Boston. Perhaps that explains my fondness for Clam Chowder and why living in a city of snow and sea breezes is my idea of happiness, but not of home. I am rooted in Missouri, rooted as deeply as anyone can be in the sandy soil that is America’s brief history. When Charbonneau of the Lewis and Clark Expedition settled here, he laid down his line in our rich earth and clear rivers, mixing his blood with the Scottish, Irish, English, and Shoshone Indians to spawn a breed of hobos, hillbillies, and horse thieves that has led directly to me.

I was born from such apparent contradictions, and I have founded my life in the rich contrasts of our world, apparent to all those who try to understand it. Once I saw the Notre Dame, “Our Lady”, that beautiful Cathedral that straddles the Seine and is a stone’s throw away from the best ice cream in Paris. Not two weeks later I found myself on a different river, canoeing through two miles of self-styled “Redneck Yacht Club” to the tune of Gretchen Wilson and some guy trying to trade me his rifle for my dachshund.

I’ve captured a black widow in a jar from my bare foot, pulled a little girl out of a pool, and converted the ez-mac recipe to a campfire. I’ve played cursing games with a Norwegian, paintball with a German, and tongue twisters with a Finn (she beat me soundly). I’ve seen Socrates’ prison and the Stone of Pnyx where democracy was born, played British Monopoly in Papiamentu and snorkelled over a shipwreck. I’ve met a man, blind from birth, who fled Sudan in search of freedom and found his sight as well. I’ve been stung by Jelly Fish and Sea Anemones, charged by a crazy dog, and warned ‘not to drive on the autobahn’, until I am ready. I can say Our Father and scold children in Aramaic, the language of Jesus, and order drinks in Lithuanian. Once a week I attend the First Arabic Baptist Church; once a year the Womack Family Reunion and Weenie Roast in Farmington.

I’ve seen a man who could change his eye colour just by looking at a bird or a blanket. No ones ever been able to explain that to me, and I prefer it that way. It is truer to have seen it without explanation than to have accepted it blindly. After all, when we die, we are nothing; only a memory, a snapshot of the world seen through a cracked lens.



I did Compile a shorter version in case it's REALLY out of place:

I was born in Boston, but my roots are in Missouri. I am a mixture of French Canadian, Shoshone Indian, Scottish, Irish, English, and perhaps a bit of Spanish. My ancestor was Charbonneau of the Lewis and Clark Expedition. I’ve seen the Notre Dame and Socrates’ prison, been offered a Rifle in exchange for my dachshund, translated a wedding cake, scolded children in the language of Jesus, captured a black widow off my bare foot, and been asked out by an Italian in Germany. I’ve played cursing games with a Norwegian, paintball with a German, and tongue twisters with a Finn, who beat me soundly. Once a week I attend the First Arabic Baptist Church; once a year the Womack Family Reunion and Weenie Roast in Farmington.


January 14, 2007

Update on a Woman Leader...

http://www.alertnet.org/thenews/newsdesk/L14143930.htm

Church

This morning my mom and my sister were tired, so we didn't go to church. I was kind of relieved. It's not that I don't love God... but I haven't been back to my own church for anything other than the occasional service project or multicultural dinner for a while now, and I've come to resist it.

It's pretty, I'll give it that. Enormous and as ancient as any church this side of the Mississippi can claim to be. Rows of beautiful blonde children and american-blonde teenagers line the pews. We have a preschool choir, a kindergarten choir, an elementary school choir, a middle school choir, a high school choir, a purple choir, and three or four specialized choirs singing barbershop style or springing from the extensive Drama department. We have too many ministries to name - from Scrapbooking to Puppets, each with a healthy membership.

And there are good people in the church, don't get me wrong about that, either. But every clear voice seems drowned out by a cacophany of 'christians' yelling at their parents and sneaking out of Devotional to meet boys. It's not just the teenagers, quite often it's their parents as well. Backstabbing is rampant at church functions. There are cliques in the sunday schools. There are five fake smiles for every real one, like a glint of richly golden tinsel hidden under a mound of cheap yellow.

You forget about those, after a while. They're background noise. Almost white noise. You concentrate on the good. You must...

Until you start going to a little church, a little Arabic Baptist Church. And it's filled with ex-missionaries and refugees, and no one is left out. You're greeted by hugs and translated 'love you's' instead of fake smiles. The children don't look like ornate, fallen angels but like children.
The food is not mass produced spaghetti from an industrial sized kitchen but a miniature feast composed of a dish from each house. And the background noise is singing.

How can I go back? Is it any wonder I've begun to resist?

Ice Storm

When I look outside, it looks like snow. It's quite easy to pretend. Then the wind blows, and a shower of meltwater lights the air like silver rain. The ice is so thick that it's wrapped the smallest twigs as thickly as my thumb, yet from far away the trees all look like glittering diamond chandeliers, and the fields look frothy and soft.

I haven't seen too many ice storms before this year. For a while we had a good deal of snow. Then we had... not so much snow. Now we have ice storms.

My parents are from Cape Girardieau, that's a college town two hours south. They used to listen to our weather forecasts in longing, wishing for snow. They used to take all the ice storms. It's moving north.

(See An Inconvenient Truth)

January 13, 2007

!!!

January 12, 2007

St. Louis...

Ego Non Habeo Patriam

Time Magazine Asks: "Does sending more soldiers to Iraq make any sense?"

Bush is sending them. 21,500 of them.

We watched the speech. Protests were ringing in the background. We couldn't make out the words, but it soundedn an awful lot like "F--- Bush" to us. In the news footage afterwards, some bigshot in the media declared that the American Empire was over. My mom whimpered. It's existed a long time for her. Not a brief second in history, only a few years of my own childhood. But a long time for her.

"Miranda, can I go with you when you move to Norway?" My sister.

"Of course. Mom?"

"If both of you are there, why not!"

Then we hit the brick wall of practicalities. Mom thinks every place in the world other than the US is too cold or dangerous, with the lone exception of the UK, which is "too expensive". France was considered, but she doesn't know French. That's fine, actually. Curacao was her favourite choice - they speak English, and it's warm, and it's cheap... but she didn't want us so far away.

And it hit me, we were considering it. We still have everything here, and Dad doesn't know a word of our scheming, and nothing comes to anything, but we're considering it. And I've been considering it for a long time. And the question comes to me: Could I really do it? Could I really leave America? I'd be an ex-patriate. The idea scares me somehow. But the answer comes to me just as quickly. Harshly, in rough Latin, it etches itself across my mind.

Ego Non Habeo Patriam.

January 07, 2007

Finals

Yay, the finals this semester are not very stressful, and the most stressful one is pretty much out of my hands...

English - I want to review vocabulary and maybe the "Love Nest" short story in preparation. English finals are hard to study for, but I want an A in the class and an A on the final would really help.

Chemistry - I'm doing a study session with Stephanie. I should have a solid B, and therefore no worries, but just to be safe...

Spanish - I don't know the exact status of my A, so it would probably be beneficial to study a little. Hopefully, if I get a B or an A, I'm fine.

Math - Even though as long as I get about a 70%, I've got a B, I think I'll study as much as possible. Math is hard.

Gym - Yeah... the final is to Squaredance....

Government - I'm going to the study session, but I don't think it will help and I don't think it needs to. I have a solid B.

German - Yeah, I'd have to get about a 25% on the final to kill my A. No studying.

January 03, 2007

Always a Globe

I will always have a globe around the house for my children to look at, and run their fingers over, and love as I do. We'll have a big atlas, too, for specifics and close ups and colour photos of Mount Everest and Macchu Picchu, the Grand Canyon and the Snows of Kilimanjaro, Rheinfels Castle and the Fjords of Norway. The globe will be for seeing all together, perfect and real, so incomprehensibly gargantuan and yet so small, and so beautiful...

They will see it and see nature, know what they have to love and experience and know what they have to protect. They will see it and see history, know the paths that have led to their time and their country. They will see it and see humanity - see the globe as I see it, bleeding with culture. A thousand gods and a thousand dreams, a thousand signs to wish on and a thousand ways to say, "I love you".

Sunset Photos


Sunsets are coming at slightly more natural times now that we're a couple weeks past the equinox. Today's ended by about 5, but went on for almost forty five minutes in a really exceptional display. At about 4:30 the sky was normal blue, but the clouds were all pink and yellow. Then the sky turned all rosy for 360 degrees - something to be able to see out of every window in my house. Hard to imagine what it would look like somewhere with a view. Even now at about 5:20, in the deepening blue, there are still little displays of amber in the far west. I grabbed a camera which amazingly had both batteries and a memory card and took a few, however I couldn't get one of the windows open so those look a little odd...

1,3,4,5,7

Mussels in White Wine and Garlic

This recipe sounds fancy and will impress people, especially when you're just making it for an afternoon snack. However, it's actually really simple.

Ingredients:
6-12 Mussels
1/8 Cup Water
1/8 Cup White Wine
1 Tablespoon Olive Oil
1 Clove Garlic
Pinch of Parsley

Preparation:
In a normal sized soup pan, heat olive oil and parsley, add garlic. When the garlic is sizzling as you add it, add water, white wine, and mussels. Make sure to clean the mussels first. The mussels actually open up really fast, or did for me, so go ahead and cover the pan and let them steam a while anyway to make the flavour good. Take them out of the shells and serve or leave to steam/boil more in the sauce. Serve with some sort of 'hard-carb'. I recommend French Bread, cooked Italian Bread, or Town House Crackers. The Sauce is delicious too, so make sure to dip the carb in it and absorb as much as possible.

January 02, 2007

No More Horizon

There's nothing in this world that time can't kill,
Heaven is empty and the stars are still.
There's only now, there's only us,
But whoever said that wasn't enough?

January 01, 2007

Yksi and Kaksi, and Dinner with Christy

Today I went to Starbucks with Christy. It was half study session, half hang out. She got Chai, a sort of spiced tea that even I, who have no taste for either coffee or it's British counterpart, admit is rather drinkable. Especially the pumpkin kind that comes out in fall. I got a white hot chocolate. I love that stuff. It needs to be more mass marketed.

We did Government Study and she took my friend quiz. She tied with Austin, although I gave her one of the answers when she had it narrowed down to 50-50. I was studying the Finnish for words 1-10, and joking about how random they all were, and how I really had to get creative. For number 6, for example, Kuusi, I imagined six Koozie Cups. No, my memory was not really so perfect as to keep the image of all six of them firmly in its memory, but the effort in doing so managed to tie Kuusi to Koozie and Koozie to Six quickly and efficiently. I honestly have no idea how it works, but if you can tie a word to an English word, it really doesn't matter what English word, it will help you remember the English meaning. I'll study it someday. (Note: This can be hard with Japanese and Chinese.)

The fun began with Kaksi, I was thinking of two, you see, and Kaksi... Two Roosters! Of course. Translate that into 'horny' teenage girl, and you have a well remembered word. So Christy was proud of knowing Kaksi, so I made her learn Yski as well, so she could count to two in Finnish. When she proudly told her mom this, of course, her mom that she said, "Count to two and finish", and wasn't impressed. She also learned Kumennen because I put her to work helping me come up with a memory trick. This one was even lamer, but again, did the trick. Cum (Latin for with), Men, In. Withmenin. Even pulling in the pitstop in Latin, it actually works. Huh.

Yksi - Kaksi - Kolme - Neljä - Viisi - Kuusi - Seitsemän - Kahdeksan - Yhdeksän - Kumennen

After this, we decided to watch "An Inconvenient Truth", that movie Al Gore made about Global Warming. I wasn't sure what to expect, but Christy seemed fired up about it, and I respect her sense of humour if nothing else. (We both are very, very easily amused by banal grammar mistakes, etc.) But, I didn't want to watch it crowded around her laptop, no matter how proud of it she was.

We hadn't eaten, so we went to Dierbergs and bought a Pomegranate, Mussels, Sole Stuffed with Lobster and Shrimp, Italian Bread, and Two Heads of Broccoli. Oh, we're healthy and capable girls. I paid for the mussels myself, since I was the only one who wanted them and didn't even make them that night. Other than that, we split the cost, which was fair because even though I kept the leftovers, I made most of the food, so it worked out. I know Christy probably wasn't even thinking that deeply on the whole matter, and I love her for that, because petty people suck, but I never want to be a freeloader.

It was a good dinner and cheap for as much as we got. The only letown was the Pomegranate, which seemed to our admittedly less than expert eyes to be... moldy. Not all of it was thus 'infected', but to be safe we threw the whole thing out. We also made fun of the box on the Fish, which listed under ingredients, right next to each other, "...Lobster, Lobster Meat..."

Yes, it was a fun evening, but I don't want my serious review of "An Inconvenient Truth" meshed with my ramblings, so I'll post it seperately later. :D

New Years Party

I went to Kates house for New Years, drove there myself (yay!). The people who came were me, Gwen, Stephanie, and Mary. First we all played DDR for a really long time, surprisingly I wasn't the worst. Despite having no rhythm or dancing skills, I played the game like Spider-Squash or the similar and wider known game Whack-a-Mole, and managed to pass every round, albeit with a D. Apparently I looked really, really funny though, because everyone was in stitches and they took video. I also got the best work out. Go me. :D Mary was a genius at DDR because, well, she owns it. But it was still neat to watch. Gwen wasn't bad, got a B or two on the easier setting. Kate and Stephanie were about my level, maybe Kate was a bit worse. (Sorry Kate!) Mrs. Schlarman was hilarious.

Then we played Super Smash Brothers Melee. If we had had the original, I would have owned with Pikachu. As it was, Mary HAD to have Pikachu, and so I got to play Link with a new controller. Ah well, I won once or twice, and it was mindless and fun. We got hungry and made ravioli and taquitos, but of course with Stephanie as a vegetarian we also had to make white pizza. I love Spinach. :D

We did a few fireworks, just fountains really, and then we watched Pitch Black with Vin Diesel. It really went in line with Scary Movie night a few days back. A creepy sort of mass slaughter movie with a bit of charector development thrown in. I thought Caroline-Fry's death at the end was a little unecessary, though. And apparently the movie has two sequals that don't even go along with the first movie, which I find strange. It's like having an RPG sequal to a first person shooter.

After this Gwen and I talked about dimensions, multiple worlds, the perserverance of the mind and soul after death, and all the crazy things Norwegians do. Mary had gone to sleep halfway through Pitch Black because she wimped out, and Stephanie just took out her hearing aides and was down for the count, but I'm sure we kept poor Kate up. Sorry!

AND HAPPY NEW YEARS!

The break is so amazing! The sun has been so bright and the rain has smelled cold and sweet, and I've been free from parents and school and stress for just a few days. Working hard to catch up!

December 31, 2006

A Year Behind

This year was the happiest and the saddest of my life.

This year was the busiest and the most introspective of my life.

This was the year I got a job and a drivers license.

This was the year I went to Greece and met Norwegians.

This was the year I looked ahead to life and found myself small and inadequate.

This was the year I looked behind to memory and found strength.

This was the year I had a Christmas in Curacao.

This was the year I looked at my friends and found goths and nerds and druggies.

This was the year I listened, and felt the words of others.

This was the year I spread my wings, shook them out, and folded them again.

This was the year I lied and snuck into a bar.

This was the year I walked the city of Mainz alone and without English.

This was the year I stood on a stage without shaking.

This was the year I won a sports trophy.

This was the year I twice loved and was twice wounded.

This was the year I couldn't count on a smile.

This was the year I felt the sunlight.

This was the year I faltered from my path.

This was the year I kept walking.

The Parking Lot

I love you and I hate you as you come out of your huge SUV with your Supersized Burger shouting curse words into your cell with a smile, filling the cool air of a winter noon with the sight of your enormous red coat and flushed cheeks.

I love you and I hate you, you teenage girls with skinny, shapeless forms and five-colour-highlighted hair, whispering and smirking and staring and pointing, congregating for half an hour before you leave in a savvy hurry.

I love you and I hate you, you are my family and you are strangers. I mock you and then I follow you into Quiznos.

Borders

I went to Borders today for the first time in a while. I was planning to buy more than I did, and I had the money too, but I figured I had to save some for the rest of the week in case I go out. I really wanted Teach Yourself Finnish, but it was about 30$, and I only had 90$ total. I ended up buying a European Phrasebook (with Finnish, German, Norwegian, Spanish, and some less important languages all bundled into a TINY little Berlitz book), another all audio Italian course (I finished the last one... the first foreign language course I've ACTUALLY finished?), and Eragon (for some mindless, clean reading).

I had to park a long way from the mall, as it's still Holiday season. That was fine walking in, the weather was really pleasant. It's very cloudy lately, with muted, colourful sunlight, which makes for absolutely gorgeous skies. When I came out, however, it was pouring down rain, and I ran all the way to my car. It was a good thing I had brought my grocery shopping bag to fill with books, because it rebels water a little, but my jeans and shirt were absolutely soaked. Still, I was happy, which goes to show that personality, circumstances at a whole, and some mysterious X factor have far more to do with mood than comfort and other fleeting things. I sang the approximately one-fourth appropriate Dido song "Thank You" and dreamed of a nice hot bath on the way home.

Scary Movie Night

Work Yesterday was a little meh, I need to get back into the rhythm, I guess. The hardest part about working in a library is that it leads to lot of sneak peaks at cover summaries, and sometimes if there isn't a cover summary you're forced to flip through the book, and even if you resist it leads to daydreaming... Oh well, I sped up towards the end. :P

Mr. Mina is in Egypt, so there was no Arabic Church and Maddy and I took the opportunity to have our scary movie night. I was really proud of myself - I drove to her house on directions. My first time driving on directions, actually!

We watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre first. It wasn't brilliant or anything, but I guess it served as a decent introduction to the genre. I thought the best part was the ending; a blurry still frame of the killers face that produced a far more effective after image than the girl getting away or even the last moments of the chainsaw guy chasing her.

After that we watched Frailty. The movie goes on for most of its duration with a man telling the story of his childhood, when his father suddenly started claiming god was sending him messages to kill 'demons', who were ordinary people. God then sent him 'magic weapons' and lists of names. The boy resisted and tried to tell the sherrif, etc, the dad locked him in the celler for two weeks until he pretended to have a vision from god and go through with his dad's plan. He turned at the last minute and killed his dad. This was all alright, but the most interesting part of the movie was the plot twist at the end. In short, the demons were real, secretly murderers and rapists, and the little boy in the story was also a demon who later became a serial killer.

After that we were considering watching What Lies Beneath or The Ring, and I wasn't tired yet. BUT, I had to drive home, so I didn't want to wait until I was tired. So we watched a couple episodes of Laguna Beach... awful. They were so real... I hated them all. :P Who would want to watch something like that? Of course, it seemed even more shallow in juxtaposition with the horror films. Then we talked for about an hour, and then I drove home in the rain and the dark and didn't crash and die. ^^ Yay!

December 21, 2006

Eragon

I saw Eragon the other day with Christina, Gwen, Sabrina, and Stephanie. The best part of the movie was hanging out with them, of course. It wasn't absolutely terrible, either. The bad guys were HORRIBLY acted... at points I was close to laughing out loud at them. The ending was terrible, too. But, I didn't mind the main charector, even if most people say he's acted blandly and always looks blank. Hey, he's a teenage boy, so it's realistic. And hey, he's cute, so it's forgivable. One minor thing that did bother me was the dragon egg... it sounded really metallic and hollow, looked dull, and basically reminded me of a huge jelly bean left out for a year and glazed over.

Honestly, though, the movie was passable, if quickly moving and stereotypical. The scenary was gorgous, somewhere between The Lord of the Rings breathtaking vistas and the Thomas Kincaid Panoramas of The Chronicals of Narnia. And, it won points with me with the language being the focal point of magic. Everyone says the book is better, so next time I'm looking for a clichéd and mindless fantasy read, I'll pick it up. It can't be worse than Urshurak...

December 19, 2006

December 18, 2006

Layla and Harvard

I haven't posted since the crap with Layla really started. I guess that dates both things.

Anyway, I was really depressed and sad today, because I waited with Layla and listened to all of her angst rants and I was so worried and hopeful about her getting into Harvard. Well, she did. Yay for her. Party!

But I was the last one to know... Even the Principal knew first... and I couldn't hug her or anything... I could barely just smile and say, "Congratulations".

Life is Hell. Humanity is Hell. Pride is the lowest level of Hell.

Mail to Finland

Never send a Christmas Present to Finland. I don't care how nice the person is, or how perfect the present is, or how cheap the present was, or how much you owe the person, or anything. Just don't do it.

I considered grabbing my babysitting money from a few weeks back, but decided the ten in my wallet would cover postage. I show up with this little bitty pound-and-a-half package, and they're like,

"Finland? Oh boy, Finland and Russia are expensive..."

Yeah, I was digging coins out of my ash tray.

December 02, 2006

Killer Dolphins!

http://snopes.com/katrina/rumor/dolphins.asp

November 28, 2006

Thanksgiving

I want to write a post about everything I'm thankful for. Or, more accurately, everyone I'm thankful for. I have so many wonderful friends, and I have a great family. You guys are my life. ^^ Well, you and languages. :P

But yeah, you definately deserve a post. And someday you'll get one...

Shrinking!

Yeah, so I'm shrinking. I don't know where it's coming from. Hopefully I'm not losing height. Or bone mass. At any rate, between Racquetball, School, Work, and Gym Make-ups, I've been losing weight. Also not having time to eat is probably a contributing factor. I'm at 87 pounds now. 39.55 Kilo, if I'm not mistaken. Also, my shoe size has fallen to 2 and a half, Kids' sizes. Don't ask how that happened.

I'm shrinking! Muaaa!

O.O

"Hey mom, could you sign this form for me, so I can compete in the NVC? Yes, I got time off work. No, I don't have a Racquetball Game that day. Yes. Mhmm. I'll fax it tomorrow. And I just have to bring my permit and some pencils. Hmm? No, I haven't eaten since breakfast. I'll get a sandwich or something. No, that's fine, I'll make it myself. No, I have to finish my essay first. Wait, I think I already submitted it. Whatever. Math homework? You're kidding, right? Chemistry... yeah... I'll stay after for tutoring tomorrow. And I'll study for Gov at lunch, with Layla if she's not still angry with me. Otherwise alone. Yeah, it's fine. I don't have to start working the bookfair for a few more days still. God, I've got a killer Spanish test Thursday. I guess I'll find time to study tomorrow. Yes, I'll go in early to do my Gym make-up. Yeah, I'll shower in the morning. Yes, I'll let Tidbit out before I go to bed. Good night. Sleep tight."

November 26, 2006

General Listening

Music Picks for a General Listening CD:

Anima Libera
Rosenrot
The River
Andre Som Jeg
Ormurin Langi
Tasogare No Umi
Arabic Track II
Ariadiamus
Hijo De Hombre
If I Never Knew You (Thai)
Move Along
Avec La Foi
Eldamar
Ohne Dich
Desert Rose

Cocina Española!

This is the big one. The one we've all been waiting for! Miranda has to plan, prepare, and serve a five course Spanish meal. Plan:

1. Pan Con Tomate

2. Sopa De Pescado

3. Paella

4. Ensalada

5. Helado con Granada

Plan:

Day One: Plan Menu

Day Two: Shop for Ingredients

Day Three: Make Ensalada and Sopa

Day Four: Make Paella and Pan Con Tomate. Serve.

I HAVE: Olive Oil, Vinegar, Salt, Pepper, Garlic, Laurel Leaf, Chicken Broth, Short Grained White Rice, Lemon Juice, Oregano.

I NEED: Loaf of Italian Bread, Five Tomatoes, 500 gram Codfish, 500 gram Assorted Seafood, Two Small Onions, Chopped Parsley, Two Chicken Thigh Fillets, Fourth of a Tablespoon Saffron, One Canned Pimento, Twelve Medium Shrimp, Two Tablespoons Sweet Paprika, A Half Cup of Peas.



1. PAN CON TOMATE

Se ponen las rebanadas a tostar. Cuando esten un poco tostadas
(no mucho) se corta un diente
de ajo por la mitad y se rasca por la rebanada.
Se corta también el
tomate por la mitad y se restriega por encima del pan
hasta que quede
suficientemente untado, y se le añade finalmente aceite de
oliva, sal
y si se quiere un poquito de vinagre.
Se suele comer con embutidos
variados.


2. SOPA DE PESCADO

  1. Poner el bacalao a remojo en agua fría, sin cambiar el agua.
  2. Calentar el aceite y echar la cebolla pelada y picada, hasta que se dore.
  3. Añadir el tomate cortado en trozos, sin las simientes. Freír todo durante 15 minutos, machacando los tomates.
  4. Pasar la preparación por el pasapurés y reservar.
  5. Echar en una olla el pescado y los cangrejos. Cubrir con agua fría, echar sal y la hoja de laurel.
  6. Cocer a fuego vivo y cuando esté hirviendo durante un par de minutos, retirar del fuego.
  7. Colar el pescado, eliminar la hoja de laurel y reservar el agua de cocción.
  8. Poner el pan en remojo en un poco de caldo del pescado.
  9. Eliminar las espinas y la piel del pescado y del bacalao. Pasarlos por el pasapurés con el pan.
  10. Quitar el caparazón a los cangrejos y pasar el cuerpo y el interior de las cabezas por el pasapurés, con un poco de caldo de pescado.
  11. Echar en una olla el tomate y luego el pimentón. Rehogar con una cuchara de madera. Añadir el pescado y el pan. Cubrir con el caldo de pescado.
  12. Rectificar de sal, si fuera necesario. Echar pimienta molida.
Cocer durante 10 minutos y echar en una sopera.

3. PAELLA
Heat pan, add two tablespoons olive oil, diced chicken. Season with salt and pepper, brown throughout. Remove chicken to bowl. Bring chicken broth to boil in a saucepan while browning onion, red pepper, and garlic in remaining olive oil in paella pan. Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Add rice, broth, oregano, and saffron to skillet. Boil on high heat, then remove. Arrange chicken and shrimp over rice. Scatter peas throughout. Bake uncovered for 25-30 minutes until liquid is absorbed by rice. Cover with a kitchen towl after removing, let sit for ten minutes.

Salad and Helado are very easy. But this is still a lot of cooking for Pobrecita Mira! :D

November 25, 2006

The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe...

I've been feeling I should read it for fairness' sake. But I'm too old now, and it would be boring. So, I decided to read it in Spanish! It's an... okay... story, but I am learning a lot of very Quaint and British Spanish. See?

Sin Embargo - Anyhow
Gozar - To have, take pleasure in
Repisa - Ledge, Shelf, Mantlepiece
Desempolvar - To Dust
Sordo - Deaf
Pañuelo - Handkerchief, Scarf
Rincones - Nooks
Una Lechuza - Owl
Tejones - Badgers
Zorro - Fox
Peldaños - Rungs, Stairs
Abrigos - Cloaks, Overcoats
Colgado - Hanging

This is Amusing:

http://www.ekran.no/html/misc/norway.html

Thanksgiving Break

This break has been wonderful - and very needed. After two blessed days of sleeping in, I still have a headache and I'm still fatigued, which goes to show how badly I needed them. Or something. Family crap just gets reshuffled- more happy times, more angst. Blah blah blah.

Thanksgiving was nice. We ate outside. In t-shirts. It's so warm it's like summer - I wanted to go swimming just for the hell of it, but the water was actually cold - like, spring water cold, and I didn't think my parents would approve, and I didn't know what would happen to me in water that cold, having never experienced it. So, without supervision or experience, I merely stuck my feet in.

Beautiful, albeit early sunsets, very blue skies at noon, amazing stars at night. Orion was blazing, and Cassiopeia, and Leo... Ah... you could even see the milky way. Words came into my head - I struggled to brush them away. You know how bright the stars are... and the Northern Lights. Feelings burn over my mind like a brief, rushing flame, and fall apart.

"Don't waste your emotion..." My dad says to my mom, fuming over the new next door neighbors at the lake. She's taken the opportunity to inform us that once THEY'VED moved in we won't see the stars so well. Don't waste your emotion is right... I'm so sick of living in a dream that will never come true.

I run inside, Tidbit runs up to me, the smells are all of Turkey and Pumpkin Pie, we break the bread as picturesquely as the famous tamale pictures... we don't fight for a little while... it's only an awkward time.

And the next day is thanksgiving... all the rich food in the courtyard, surrounded by cedar and pine. The lights play on the lake, white aspens surround the waterside, ducks drift across and hawks above... Tidbit growls at them from her bed, looking to us for protection. The air is strangely, unseasonably warm. I like it day to day, although it unsettles me...

Carl the exterminator comes by to brag about the deer he finally shot... 30 meters, he whispers, like it's a big secret. A feral cat looking suspiciously like a bobcat slinks around beneath a trailer. Cottonwood sheds flowers like snow over the hillside, as even the wind is warm on your back. Jackie wants to tell us all about peanut butter fudge when mom calls us in...

November 22, 2006

Stress And Turkey

Right. Forty Nine Emails later, we're done with our Government Report.

The only mistake, that we know of, may not even be a problem, is mostly my fault, and is a result of miscommunication. So yeah, not that bad. Layla thought we needed in text citations, I had no idea; I've only used them once in my life. So I threw them all in at the last minute... and...

00:27 me: dies
00:28 gwen: beat you to it. i'm already dead.
me: Oh my god
We just had the Gov thing
Right?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
:P
gwen: yeah?
me: Layla and I bandied over 49 emails about it
gwen: o lord
me: and then I find out twenty minutes before turn it in time that I need in text citations
RIGHT:.....
So I'm adding those and sending, adding and sending
Finally I compile it all into a master file and send it
00:29 gwen: yeah
me: But she freaks out and just wants to submit
So she ignores it
We don't know how much she got
And so we emailed Chazen and we're like
We're missing anywhere from 2-10 in text citations, but we think we have 95-100% of the bibliography. :D
gwen: lol
hopefully it'll turn out ok
me: And it's totally my fault and I'm an idiot
And it's Layla, for God's sake
So I can't even be like
00:30 Haha, remember the time you...
gwen: oh no worries - it's not like she NEEDS the grades.
me: Oh, but she DOES
She's cutting that grade closer than she's ever cut a grade before
She told me
gwen: lol
me: She's been sweating blood
gwen: difference between A and H?
me: What are you up to?
:P Yeah
gwen: an A won't kill her
00:31 i just finished that english essay
me: But hey, I sweat blood over it in Spanish, and I still have an A, and I'm still alive.
I should have donated it..
Oh!
gwen: i did it all in one sitting
me: Let's see!
gwen: ugh it's awful
but it's done
me: (Chazen should have given us until 2 am)
I did mine in one sitting, too
:P
Trade?
Nah
Not tonight
Later
;)
gwen: later, definitely
but i'm off to bed
me: Yeah
00:32 gwen: i'm exhausted
me: Me too
Love you, Gwen
Have a happy Thanksgiving
:D
gwen: love you more!!!
me: NO STRESS!
gwen: eat turkey

November 21, 2006

My Friends

I'm just flying. My fingers won't stop typing. Emails. Essays. Deadlines. Blog Posts. And my feet won't stop moving - Babysitting, Work, Racquetball, Service Hours..

I'm so busy I don't have time to stray from my default into dark and nasty thoughts. So I'm happy, exhausted, burnt out, rambling, wandering into walls and falling into wells, but happy...

And I love having Layla around.

I need Layla, see. I'm ashamed and I don't want it to be too obvious, but she's guiding me. Sometimes it may seem the other way around, and sometimes it may appear that we're walking hand in hand, but she's guiding me. I'm following her footsteps through the crowd, hoping to come out on the other side.

And Billie - As Layla said, you are our happy environment. Always be Billie. I know you're human... But please, be Billie. For all of us. :D

And I can't give anything but Cookies, so... I'll just keep bring those... I love you...

November 20, 2006

Anima Libera

Anima libera,
ti senti candida,
lassù nel cielo volerai
Anima libera,
sempre mi illumina,
nel buio dei pensieri miei
Anima libera,
sovente e magica,
sei la speranza dentro me
Anima libera,
leggera e unica,
nel cosmo azzurro brillerai
E non lasciare che,
paure inutili,
nascondano la luce in te
Io non ti scorderò,
io ti celebrerò,
col ritmo di questa canzone...

- Anima Libera, EMI

(Beautiful song, even more beautiful language. :D)

Whoohoo, It's Midnight!

Yay! I made it! I stayed up until midnight! Still going strong! Break out the Champagne!

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November 19, 2006

End to Understanding II

Not so great yet. Then again, not too terrible for a rough draft. I think I might be supposed to mix up the scarlet letter - crucible examples more. At any rate, here it is, feel free to ignore - I post it only for reference as it's supposed to be THE ESSAY of Junior Year... Hey, wouldn't it be funny if Turnitin.com found this site and said I was plagiarising from myself? :P


An End to Understanding


One shows us a community torn asunder with raging and impassioned allegations of the occult. The other tells the tale of two lives irreparably scarred by the ironfisted ruling for a brief moment of lust. The Crucible by Arthur Miller, and The Scarlet Letter by Nathanial Hawthorne, tell two different stories with one ardent message, which stands today to warn us against the dangers of law untempered by both reason and human emotion. In both cases this admonition follows a simple arc of corruption and eventual failing over man’s judicial authority, beginning with an unbalanced influence of reason and emotion over the ruling of the court, molded by the strict puritan lifestyle. These unjust rulings extend to squander human lives and good intentions until ultimately and chaotically overthrown by either surrender or growing disregard of their magisterial power.

Humans are fundamentally flawed creatures. Prone to error, they have two forces at their disposal which, used in tandem, can lead them on the course of justice. These forces are those of reason and of emotion, each of which must be tempered with the other, or they may just as easily lead to ruin. Such is the sad case of the Crucible and the Scarlet Letter. In the Crucible, reason is at fault. In a panic fueled by a growing mass hysteria, the long repressed emotions and selfish motives of the people of Salem come to surface with deadly consequences. The Putnams, for example, take advantage of the madness to feed their own greed. They have their daughter testify against a neighbor so they can take his land. As Giles explains, “If Jacobs hangs for a witch he forfeit up his property – that’s law! And there is none but Putnam with the coin to buy so great a piece. This man is killing his neighbors for their land! (101)” Abby, the orchestrator of the confessors, has her own ulterior motives. Having once had an affair with John Proctor, she believes he would marry her but for his wife Elizabeth, and summarily moves to dispose of her. As Proctor turns increasingly against her, she shows no hesitance in taking him down as well. Cold and calculating, she knows that as an ‘innocent’ young maiden, she will be believed. “And if they ask you why Abigail would ever do so murderous a deed,” she fairly asks Proctor, “What will you tell them? (158)” The irrational court that the hearings are held in allow lies to fester and spread like wildfire. Hale, the learned judge, is originally overeager and ambitious in his judgments, thrilled at some level to put his years of study to test on the field. The other judges, Hathorne and Danforth, are equally partial and unyielding of their control in the court. Spectral evidence, now considered an oxymoron, was fair game in the Salem Witch Trials, as the witnesses would testify to spirits visiting them at night or advancing upon them in the court. If Salem, then, was host to a courtroom turned circus, the Boston of the Scarlet Letter is home to one of ironfisted damnation, bereft of human tenderness. The inhabitants there condemn Hester to a lifetime as a pariah for a moment’s lust, and call it mercy in the face of the gallows she might as easily have faced. Perhaps they are desperate for a scapegoat, thirsting for someone to take notice away from their own petty sins in a society where no transgression is too small to warrant the gaze of hell. Perhaps they are simply jealous of the young, beautiful Hester Prynne, who with her skilful embroidery looks so different from their own “broad shoulders and well developed busts and… round and ruddy cheeks. (46)” With whatever cruel motive born from a strict and cold life, Hester’s neighbors advance on her ruthlessly, hurling towards her every weapon of humiliation in an attempt to break her spirit.

Sprung from a thousand cruel motives and envenomed by bitterness, the unbalanced and barbarous rulings of Salem and Boston could only ever bring about evil consequence. In their own time, both waste innocent lives and squander good intentions, transforming the pure and good to corruption and decay. In the Scarlet Letter, the judgment of man leaves a child to grow up fatherless, a woman to live in pain, a minister to lead himself to death with guilt, and a physician’s heart and soul to blacken with vengeance. Each would have had much to offer the world, if treated by it with more clemency and understanding. Instead, Pearl, the child of lust, grows up in a broken home to be a wild and strange child, forever separated from the companionship of others her own age by the sinful past that precedes her. Her mother Hester is a beautiful, clever, and kind woman who grows old before her time wandering in constant pain from the guilt and ostracism she endures. She may have given great happiness to a man and many children as a wife, or even to society as a giving and talented embroiderer. Instead, she is long ignored and avoided, and takes to wearing her hair pinned up in a cap, turning grey and lifeless before the eyes of Boston. Dimmesdale, her partner in sin, is also relentlessly tormented. Never strong, he lingers on in bad health and unimaginable guilt for years, tortured by the physician who subtly draws out the effects of his own poisonous emotions. A brilliant speaker and holy, god-fearing minister, Dimmesdale nonetheless realizes that if his congregation only knew of the sin he had once committed, he would be cast out and made nothing before them, unable even to repent through good works and service. The physician, Hester’s thwarted husband, is also cruelly affected by the judgment even as he is part of it. He is made to feel as though Dimmesdale has committed a crime against him which is grievous beyond reckon and utterly unforgivable. His mind is twisted to madness with dark thoughts, and is increasingly compared with the Black Man, the Satan of Puritan society, as he sinks further and further from his roots as a gentle scholar. In the Crucible, the waste of life and love is even more lucid, as throngs of innocent people are incarcerated, many even killed. Children are made orphans. Women are made widows. Men are made to live in their guilt for the remainder of their wretched lives. Rebecca Nurse, a saintly woman all her life, is excommunicated and hung. Giles Corey, an old man a bit rough around the edges but kind at heart, and well loved in a begrudging sort of way, is torturously pressed with stones in an attempt to force a confession from him. Even long after the bloodbath has settled, unpleasantness haunts the town. Few participants ever rest in peace, some losing family members to death and illness, others doomed, it seems, to wander in search of employment or contentment.

Such destructive and wasteful judgment can not, and does not, continue forever, although by the time the wounds have been staunched they have left indelible scars. In some cases, the overthrow of the law, or the events that set it into motion, are dramatic and violent displays of false surrender. Dimmesdale confesses his sins at last, before the eyes of God and his beloved congregation. Freed from his guilt at long last, and finally safe from the poison of the physician, he dies in a sort of peace. Proctor uses his last words in a desperate attempt to rally Salem and expose the madness and hypocrisy of the trials. He sends himself to hang, with multiple chances to surrender to the hysteria and save himself. He refuses to condemn others, or to lie about his own sins, but stands at last clean before all. “I have found my honesty, (158)”, he says, finally finding a cause worth confessing, and dying for in the lives of his wife and his neighbors. He goes on to the gallows, but he has made his peace and is, as Dimmesdale, somehow content. Not all shake off the law so furiously, but time, the great healer, brings many of them to break it in their own slow and steady way. They become numb to its decrees and begin to turn against it, and the law in turn falls without support. The townspeople, after a time, cease to see the red A that burns against Hester’s bosom. They explain it away as meaning “A”, for “Able” and begin to appreciate her talents and her strengths. The witch trials swiftly but quietly dissolve, and as the years go by slow amends begin to be made. These are little enough atonement, and pale beside the transgressions they seek to allay, but they are made nonetheless. In its own zealousness, the law had burned too brightly and too ardently, and in the end died away with a bang and a whimper.

The Crucible and the Scarlet Letter are sad stories, drearily hopeful at best, which illustrate the worst of human nature and of the institution of law. They serve, however, as a warning, not an epitaph, and to some extent this warning has been heeded. Today we learn about the Salem Witchcraft Trials in school, refuse to admit spectral evidence to our courts, and pledge never again to let such injustice rule our minds. Whether or not we have been successful, of course, is debatable, but our court system is different for having that particular dark smudge on its past. When we read the Scarlet Letter, we close it having a slightly different opinion on judging others and the good in others. Perhaps it makes us better people, perhaps we continue to go about our lives as before, but the warning stands, and it would be wise to heed it.

An End to Understanding

Alright, so... has anyone noticed a pattern where, the more homework I have, the more I blog? But I'm tricking it, see, this blog post will be homework.

So my essay, which I'm thinking about calling "An End to Understanding", because the two choices for style in Essay Titles are "Technical and Cold" or "Lame", and I like to go with "Lame" because I'm what the English teachers call "Creative". So my essay. I'm going to examine where, when, how, and why the law went terribly astray in The Scarlet Letter and The Crucible.

TENTATIVE THESIS:

The Scarlet Letter by Hawthorne and The Crucible by Miller share a common theme: A gradual corruption and eventual failing of the power of the law. In both cases this starts with an unbalanced influence of reason and emotion over the ruling of the court, extends to waste and destroy innocent lives and good intentions, and is ultimately overthrown by surrender or growing disregard of their magestrial authority.

REASONS:
The Court was Over-Eager in Judgement in both cases. In Crucible emotion ruled, without reason. In the Scarlet Letter law ruled, without human tenderness.

REASON VS. EMOTION


Coldness of Society, Self Righteousness - Women in Scarlet Letter, Judges in Crucible.
Need for a Scapegoat - Society at Large, Both.
Greed - The Putnams wanted land, Abby wanted John Proctor.
Jealousy - Hester was pretty, young, and skillful.
Mass Hysteria - Everyone flips in Crucible.


RESULTS: These judgements made in haste bring undue mental and physical punishment, a waste of innocent lives and good intentions.

Guilt - Hester and Dimmesdale feel extraordinary guilt, guilt is aftereffect of cruelty for Salem judges, witnesses.
Prejudice - People judged Hester at first sight due to her Scarlet Letter, people saw witches in every corner.
Condemned Innocents - Innocents went to the gallows or were pressed to death in Crucible, in Scarlet Letter Pearl was outcast and Hester and Dimmesdale felt more guilt than they deserved.
Waste of Goodness - Good people were killed, ending their potential for good permanantly. Town society destroyed, waste of much good. In Scarlet Letter Hester's goodness was only slowly recognized, Dimmesdale felt his own goodness would be nil if he confessed.


DOWNFALL: Eventually the extreme injustice of the law brings about it's own downfall as the rulings gradually lose their sway over the society or victims are driven to confess or surrender, breaking it's power.

Confession or Surrender - Dimmesdale Confesses to Adultery, is safe from Chillingsworth, is right with God. Proctor confesses to Lechery, weakening Abby's hold.
Eventual Acceptance - Time Heals all wounds. More peacefully, people give in and reaccept people, reversing ruling - Hester's A means Able. Witchcraft Trials shiver and die.

CONCLUSION: Unjust and short-sighted law, fueled by an imbalance of stark reason and tempering human understanding, brings about disasterous consequences for all those involved, and ultimately for the law itself through nullifying surrender or popular disregard.

Pay-Day

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