June 30, 2006
Time Apart
So yes, now I'm off... I could be mysterious, but really, I'm going to the Lake. I'll have some fun out on the boat and playing Soul Calibur, and also some time to be myself. Completely. Without any ties. Not Petra, not Elindomiel, not even Ellie. I'll just be Miranda.
I'll see you after that.
June 26, 2006
A Fun Game
www.cybernations.net
Fun with Farsi
What's in a word?
Translation assumes that humanity has some finite collection of meanings in common and that each language has a word for each meaning. Actually, of course, words denote things people have noticed, and different peoples have noticed different things.
Last summer, I was in Colorado with a bunch of my Afghan cousins, sitting on a lawn and lazing away the summer afternoon. As the light sank, one cousin said, "Let's go indoors. I'm getting qukh."
My Farsi has faded somewhat in the many years since I left the Farsi-speaking world, and qukh was new to me. "What is qukh?"
"Well," said my cousin, "you know, how if you sit on grass long enough, especially late in the day, the moisture rising from the earth makes the fabric of your pants damp?"
Yes.
"And you know how the damp fabric clings to your skin?"
Uh-huh.
"And when you pull the fabric away, your skin feels kind of bumpy and itchy?"
Yes.
"Well, that's qukh!"
Now, this usage may seem so precise and limited that one would rarely find a use for it, even if the word existed in English. But the very next day, driving to Aspen, my back was sweating against the vinyl seat; it made the shirt stick to my skin; and after a few hours I had to pull over because--well, I was feeling a bit qukh. Since then, I have noticed ever so many instances of this phenomenon.
Of course, English could adopt this word, or any word, if English speakers found it useful. That's what languages do. But once a word comes into English, it is used in real-life English-language situations, in letters and literature and conversations, and thus accumulates associations that make it an organic part of the experience of English-speaking people. These associations and connections, these capillaries of meaning, seat the word in the living flesh of the English language. And every word in a language has such capillaries connecting it to all the rest of the language. We don't see them but if we know the language, we feel them: They are a part of its meaning.
This hits me every time I play around with translation. Once, for example, I was trying to translate a ghazal, a sonnet-length lyric, by the 14th-century poet Hafez from Persian (a.k.a. Farsi, a.k.a. Dari) into English. Translated literally, the first two lines of this celebrated poem go as follows:
If that Turk from Shiraz were to capture my heart
I would give away Samarkand and Bokhara for her Hindu mole.
I suppose it's no use telling you that this couplet thrums with mysterious erotic resonance in Persian. Few English speakers will be convinced, especially about the Eros.
But why is so much lost? After all, practically half the words in this couplet are names. They sound and mean the same in English as in Persian. Samarkand, Bokhara, and Shiraz are cities you will find on any English-language map. And even in English, Turks are Turks and Hindus are Hindus.
Some translators fuss with synonyms to inject rhythm and rhyme into the lines, hoping to recapture the music of the original. It's no use. At the end of the day, you're still left with that Turk. And that mole.
And that's the problem. The Western ear comes to this couplet with associations drawn from Western history and literature. In the West, ever since the Crusades, Turk has meant "brutal menace on the eastern frontiers of Christendom." In real life, Turks include men, women, and children, but in the network of English-language associations, Turk is fundamentally male--a brawny, scimitar-wielding male. Those invisible capillaries of meaning feed all that extra meaning into the mere word.
In the Persian network of associations, Turk is more complicated. Even there, the label brings power to mind, Turks having formed the ruling aristocracy of every Muslim society from Delhi to Istanbul for 800 years. But it's not a shadowy Other looming beyond the borders, it's our own, familiar power elite--kings and queens presiding over courts, doling out patronage and favors. You might say that in Hafez's world, Turk evoked a feeling roughly like American might in today's industrialized West.
And in those same societies, Persians also commanded an authority of their own, based on a supposedly more ancient cultural sophistication. They contributed poetry, art, perfume, an appreciation of gardens--and Shiraz epitomized the romantic Persian city. It was the Venice of the Persian world.
Samarkand and Bokhara may be mere place names to the Western sensibility, but to the Asiatic ear, they evoke the same mythic splendor and decadent luxury aroused in the West by such names as Byzantium, Babylon, or Rome. Hindu filters into the Western sensibility through the British colonial experience, but for Persians Hindus were within a familiar civilization, interlaced, highly relevant, and yet…exotic. An analogous figure for Westerners might be the Japanese: clearly industrialized, clearly modern, and yet…exotic.
Finally, there's that mole. Westerners don't go for moles. No, no, we just don't. It's no better if they're Hindu moles. No mole at all is the look we prefer. No accounting for taste. Frankly, 30 years ago, I never would have guessed that stylish young American women would one day sport tattoos or that guys would find tattooed women attractive.
In short, to convey any hint of what Hafez was up to in that famous couplet of his, a translator might have to go with something like this:
If that American in Venice were to coo "I love you too…"
I would barter Babylon and Rome for her Japanese tattoo.
But would that really count as a translation? Now you've got the capillaries--maybe--but you've lost the word. You see the problem.
Kaleidoscope world
And the problem goes beyond vocabulary. A view of the world is embedded in the very structure of a language, any language. Pronouns, for example, have no gender in Farsi. A religious statement never forces or lets you assign a gender to God. In French, by contrast, even bicycles have gender, as do abstract ideas, and their modifiers must conform. What do fluent speakers of this language see? I have trouble imagining.
In Turkish, I am told, the first vowel in a sentence determines what all the other vowels in the sentence will be. Change the first word and the whole sentence sounds different. Hmm.
Tahitian consists almost entirely of separate word parts that stand alone. You need a whole sentence to express all the meanings that English can pack into a single highly inflected compound verb.
By contrast, Finnish lets you combine more or less any number of word bits and affixes to create single words that express what would take whole sentences to say in English. Juoksentelisinkohan, a combination of seven little word parts, is a single word that means, "I wonder if I should run about aimlessly?"
A French teacher in Colorado once said to me, "My students keep asking, 'How do you say this or that in French?' And I'm at a loss because the real answer is, 'You don't.'"
A Future Life
My mom tells stories of roaming and hanging out with everyone as if I'm pathetic not to do the same, I complain that I couldn't if I wanted to. She says of course, times have changed. My era. It's not right. My dad tells stories of being a boyscout, of spending nights alone in the woods and building his own lean to's, of finding a mountain lion's den and being attacked by a strange valley wind. I complain that in Girl Scouts we're not even allowed to be at the shower house without an adult, even in pairs at the age of 16. I complain that in Girl Scouts we can't stand nor sit but must KNEEL in a canoe for the overbearing idol of safety. For all the good it does us, we have no better record than the boys, and they get to have fun in all of it. I used to spend hours trying to kiss my elbow, because I heard it would turn me into a boy.
Someday. I'll be out of high school. Maybe out of college. I'll have friends. Real friends. I'll have a boy. A real boy. No one will care that I'm short, no one that matters. I'll look my age. I'll be brave and wear short shorts and cute shirts and nice make-up and sometimes bikini's and people will see me. In this future life, I'll travel, I'll see the world, I'll do all those things. Wander. Roam. Explore. Live. Not in video games, not in stories, not in dreams of tomorrow. Those only last so long. Then things will happen.
Stupid Miranda
"I thought maybe you were in Europe. Aren't you going to Europe soon?" - Mrs. Desloge.
"No... I get to go to Canada, though." (But just over the Border, naturally.)
"Oh, Because Bryan just went with a whole bunch of people, with school..."
"Oh yeah, A whole lot of them went." Everyone at Wendy's party was talking about it. Jan left on the same day, on the same flight. Back to Germany. Todd just got back from Ireland. Angela wasn't going to go because she went to Australia instead.
;_; ;_; ;_; Let's whine let's cry, we only have a lakehouse, we only have a swimming pool, everyone's in Europe but us.... ;_; ;_; ;_;
Oh, it's disgusting. Miranda, you idiot, not everyone but you is in Europe...
Phone Bill
Why I could Never Teach
- An Email I got today from a friend of mine in Korea.
June 25, 2006
Eight - Lust
- Eight – Lust
Lust in the sense of wanting more of what this individual finds stimulating to the point that most people would feel overwhelmed and say too much.
Obsession. Addiction. Wanting More. Wanting it all. Wanting too much.
Yeah, I've got that. A Brief List, excluding foods:
Banjo Kazooie - 1998
The Hobbit - 1998
Computers - 1998 on
Paranormal - 1998-2001
Pokemon - 1999-2001
Lord of the Rings 2001 on
Languages 2001 on
Zelda - 2002
Elvish - 2002
Writing - 2002 on
Role Playing - 2003 on
Baldurs Gate Dark Alliance - 2004
When is enough enough? When you get up at 5 from dreams of running down hallways killing beasts to play Dark Alliance before you go to school in the morning? When you spend all your electives and more taking German, Spanish, and Latin? When you learn a bit of the language of LOTR, and can recite the first 5 chapters of the Lay of Leithien? When you sneak on at lunch and gym class to make a reply, and hit F5 on message boards repeatedly, waiting for more stimulation? When you know every detail about Zelda and Banjo Kazooie, and what it was originally called, and the little jokes of the producers, and what happens when you pull out the left side of the cartridge exactly so? When you can recite all 251 pokemon, in order, and know more about them than any kid at your school, in the epicenter of the madness?
That being said... I think I do watch myself. Bah... Or it could just be luck. What I mean is... so far, they're all rather healthy obsessions. Baldurs Gate Dark Alliance was probably the worst, and PokƩmon was disgustingly fadish. But Languages and Writing are productive. Still, I'll jus ttry to stay away from Drugs. I don't drink, I don't like pain or sleep pills, and I don't do Soda or Caffeine. I'll do my best! :D
Conversations at Racquetball
"Miranda? Nei, Nei, Jeg heter Petra. No... I'm Ellie. Like Jelly. Joe and I. Jelly."
Do I remember where Ellie even came from? Those fanciful roots... as easily forgotten as maintained, but I did promise, in so many signatures and usernames, not to change like the rest of the world. So there she is... Elindomiel's there as well. Miranda and Petra and Jelly and Elindomiel.
The best part about being crazy, about chattering away to yourself is that you always get to make the point you want to make, you always get to go the way you want to go. Next I play Tia. A few seats behind me, but I'm sinking. She gets three points on me. I can autopilot when I have the serve, but I should try... I should try to pay attention when she does.
I get the serve back. Then I'm back to nowhere. 8-3. But I don't think "Eight". It's either "Ć tte or Otto" and I can't even tell the difference. I find that funny. No reason. She gets four more points. I take the serve. 11-7. Almost like 7-11. I find that funny. No reason. I hit a perfect serve right down the backhand wall. She hits it, but poorly... it bounces and skitters, barely making the front wall.
If I ever really go insane, if it ever goes beyond an extreme case of mind wandering in Racquetball, someone tell me. I might go so far as to write a letter to myself, label it, "Open in case of lost marbles, of a burnt out christmas light." It will tell me all the things I want to do if I'm ever too insane to care. There will be much speaking in tongues. Real and Imagined. And I want to sing this one song. Simple, not horrible, short, and looping. The Windmill Song. Perfekt. I'll sing it all day long.
Just tell me when. I'll be ready. :D
The American Tradition
""The US has done more than any other nation in history to provide equal rights for all," The American Tradition assures us. Of course, it's authors have not seriously considered the levels of human rights in the Netherlands, Lesotho, or Canda today, or in Choctaw society in 1800, because they don't mean their declaration as a serious statement of comparative history - it is just ethnocentric cheerleading."
Summer Reading List
Freakonomics
The Rogue Economist
Bringing Down the House (Maybe)
The Iliad and the Odyssey
The Kite Runner
Italian Now!
Wheelock's Latin
Lies my Teacher Told Me
So You Want to Write
June 24, 2006
Back from Camp
June 17, 2006
10,000 Year Calendar
http://www.flightquarters.com/Merchant2/merchant.mv?Screen=CTGY&Category_Code=F
Third and Fourth time I am reduced to near speechlessness by something online in a few days. I tried the first one out and found out the world should end on a Wednesday. :) This amuses me because the old poem says, "Wednesday's Child is Full of Woe"
June 16, 2006
Writing and Reading
They're very different, obviously... one a classic and the other mainstream fiction. But so far theyre both very good, and I think I can feel myself learning technique! :P Alright, so the Iliad is a lot of technique to aspire to. But still, it's a step in the right direction to read it and think about it...
Edit: I topped out at more than 1,000 today. I rock. ^^
June 15, 2006
...Wow
AC: Do you have any favorite questions that kids have asked you?
LS: This kid at a reading the other day asked if I had a hot tub, and I said no. So he said that neither did Christopher Paolini -- Christopher Paolini wrote Eragon, a popular children's series. I said, well, that's why Christopher Paolini and I had never been in a hot tub together, because every time we were together we'd say your hot tub or mine, and we'd both have to say we didn't have one, which is why Christopher Paolini and I have remained total strangers rather than hot tub partners.
An End to Understanding
1.) The sadness will be either:
A.) Something I could be working to improve, and if I am not, then I shouldn't be complaining.
B.) Not something I can be working to improve, and therefore I should just try to accept it and move on.
2.) Wallowing in Self Pity and Despair is only a destructive emotion.
BTW, the Emo speech I posted was not a reflection of true feelings, and the Blue Sky post, while based on a real feeling, was exaggerrated and parodied. And finally, wallowing might be a little strong, for the most part I am happy. :)
Que Necesito Hacer Hoy...
Morning: Eat, Survive, Learn Japanese Verbs, Plot
Lunch: Eat
4:00 : Visit Mrs. Hirayoshi, show off Verbs
6:00 Christy comes and I show off Italian. :P
At Some Point: Pack a bit more, Write a bit, Tell Mr. Mina that unfortunately my camp DOES start on Saturday for me since I'm an aide, and I can't attend church with him this week.
GPA
Math - 72% (C) --- 87% (B)
Biology - 82% (B) --- 89.3% (B)
English - 90% (A) --- 93% (A)
History - 90% (A) --- 88% (B)
German - 95% (A) --- 95% (A)
Spanish - 91% (A) --- 98% (A)
Latin - 93% and Project (H) --- 96% (A)
So, obviously the problem is in not doing the Latin project. I guess I can admit that I should have, BUT... 1) I thought my grade was high enough without it. It has to be a 97% or above. Perhaps it was until the final, in which case, bah, at least I can't blame anyone. But if it was because it was below 97% anywhere in the semester, then I blame my teacher, because I had a hard time getting grade print outs from him and knowing where I stood. 2) You have to do the project in the middle of finals week! Last semester, this was possible because I devoted a three day weekend to it. This year, no such opportunity was available.
So in the end, I must say, well, it was an H for God's sakes, what are you going to do? It's really just the irony that's killing you, your grades are fine. And probably, the colleges would rather you have a B and an A than a C and an H. Hard to say.
But Irony Part II... and not as destructive...
I have a 4.0 in College so far. :D Because my Spanish class counted for 5 credit hours in college.
June 14, 2006
A Lot of Pieces (Non Emo)
Reese's Pieces® 25 pounds
Approximately 14,200 candy Coated Peanut Butter Confections.
Suggested Retail Price: $117.28
Amount of Gross Profit: $36.35
Wholesale including shipping*... $80.93
June 13, 2006
On A Roll
I'm on a Roll. 3 emo posts in a row, 5 chapters in Italian in a row, 1 cool new group on Facebook. :D Above you see the lovely picture (obviously depicting Grumio and Metalla for anyone who has suffered through the atrociously easy first year of Latin, which actually only takes a week); the name is Sola Lingua Bona, and the theme is Latin! For all the Latin students at our school, because you know they rock. ^^
The Cup
What I need now is to feel some real anguish, so I can tell the difference on that end of the spectrum as well and stop feeling so sorry for myself.
Go Away, Blue Sky
I didn't like it there. A true blue sky, a sky like that, tugs at you. It tells you you have to open your heart wide, like this, if you want to really see it, really trust it and feel it. But I... do not. I want to, understand, in the part of me that has some measure of faith and some sense of importance. But I hold back, and just feel it tugging, and it hurts.
So go away, blue sky. Take your brightest beauty and go to someone who can see it.
ROFLMAO
June 12, 2006
Gluttony
- Seven – Gluttony
Gluttony not in the sense of eating too much, but instead, of sampling a taste of everything the world has to offer (breadth) and not taking the time for richer experience (depth).
Gluttony. It's what I've got to watch for. You know why? Because when I start to like something, really like it, when I start to go beneath the very top of the surface and it starts feeling... comfortable... Then I stop. I feel like it's not mine. I feel unclean and unworthy... No, not that. I feel like an outsider. Like it's not mine to touch, not deeply. I'm afraid I won't pass, so I don't move past scanning. So I just taste it. Keep things light. And move on.
June 10, 2006
Italian
The above diagram illustrates why I must learn Italian, and I how I plan to do so. Trip to Italy is planned for the Spring - I've even started paying for it. Knowledge of Italian is optional, but would make things far more fun. Then, Christy is getting an Italian. A real live Italian girl. Well, if she's learning, I must as well. And between Latin and Spanish, it'd be a shame if I didn't at least learn a little. So. The Plan.
I woke up this morning at 8:00. I cleaned my room and the kitchen. I showered. I dressed. I walked Tidbit. I painted my nails. I addressed post cards. I did the first five chapters of a French CD I had lying around. Then I decided Christy had better be awake. I called her and woke her up. We went to Borders. These things aren't free.
Teach Yourself Italian was the first and main purchase. It always helps to have an old friend. Two pronunciation Cd's to go with it. Eurotalk would get us started, I already owned that. Italian Dictionary? I've already got one good enough to serve for now. Thus only the last purchase remained: A workbook, mostly, with enough aspects of a textbook to stand alone except pronunciation, which is mercifully easy. Italian Now! L'Italiano D'oggi! The Italian Doggy? We had a ways to go.
We broke our impoverished banks to buy them. She was saving money, my purse is at the lake, and I just put down 500$ for the Italy trip.
Home. We opened everything, flipped through to see what we would be dealing with. We wasted a little time preparing Ravioli, Margherita Pizza, and Garlic Bread, but we needed the mood that created. Then we cracked the books and attacked the soul killing bit: pronunciation. Not as easy as, say, Norwegian, but not bad, really. The G's and Gh's and C's and Ch's and Gl's and Gn's seemed a little... random, but they all followed rules.
So full speed ahead. We beat the first three chapters of Eurotalk. A shade easier for me, after Spanish. And so I was a shade better. But it's nice to have someone as quick as Christy to work with, I didn't feel like she was dragging me down. Swimming for a break, then we got onto the workbook and did the first chapter in that. Now we will be meeting twice a week. We only have a year, after all. And we want to be well underway when the Italian arrives.
Six Hours Later.
Italian! It tastes just like the food! Creamy and smooth and crunchy all in one! With a hint of garlic, Christy added as I began to suspect she thought me as nutty as all of you do. Is it my favourite language ever? No. Not like English my native tongue, nor like Norwegian my beloved, nor even Spanish with it's effortless grace. But it beats French hands down, Japanese by a bit, and is about tied with German and Elvish. Tasty. Delicious. I admit, I'm excited.
Arabic Church Again
"Miranda? I heard that name once, a long time ago..."
I came. I cut out hearts for little kids to make fathers day cards. I drew pictures and taught them to make fortune tellers. I ate some delicious rice stuff with a mixture of chicken broth and boiled chicken and a spinach like thing poured over it. I ate a lasagna thing that was creamy and sweet. I ate pita bread. I recieved a gift of fresh eggs from a farmer: no pesticides, they said. I tried Arabic Coffee. Even the American kind is to strong for me, so they all laughed.
"We have Arabic Watermelon too." They said.
"How is it different?"
"Ha ha! It's from the Grocery Store!" -.-
And they remembered me. The new ones asked me my name, and what country I was from.
"Uhm... Here?"
"Oh really? You look like at least a mix."
"Yeah, I think you could pass for Arabic."
I get told that about nearly everything... I could pass. Oh, the confusion!
Having left at 7:00, I got home at 11:00; that's four hours of church. And it speeds by in a blur of Candy Land and Qahwah. There was a fierce storm outside, so I waited it out in my kitchen, watching another hour go by. I watched Tidbit snore as I finished up the first chapter of Italian. It's been a long day, but Ah... The Happiness.
June 09, 2006
New Icon?
Move Along
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Right back what is wrong
We move along
- The All American Rejects
June 08, 2006
A Little Piece of Silver
In your hand?
It's like a little piece of silver
Cut from the moon, maybe.
No, it's just a shard of glass.
It's from that old china pitcher,
So lovely all that time ago.
But now the leftover fragments
Only cut
And sometimes look like yesterday.
Limits
The edge is almost too far to see.
There are limits, you know?
But I guess you wouldn't
Know anything
About that.
Media Club Trip Vanquished
This weekend looks busy too, with Wendy's birthday party and.... *drum roll, please*, a return at long last to Arabic Church with the Mina's! I finally get to go again. o.O It seems like it's been forever, but I can't wait. And I heard their congregation about doubled with people getting away from the genocide in Darfur. And the guy who was blind last time can see now because they had a kind of surgery in the US that worked for him. Cool, eh? :)
Anyhow, in between these exciting events, I'll have long, slow, wonderful days in which to post on the blog, write, and maybe even get my apple cider. Ciao!
A Very Emo Speech
"I am so sorry to be the one to tell you this, but you will never be happy.
I want you to go outside on the sunniest, sweatiest day of the year and quietly say it aloud. 'I will never be happy.' Even in the heat, you should be able to see your own cold, smoky breath acknowledge the statement. The only way to avoid seeing your breath is to say it proudly like a wise man. 'I will never be happy!' Try it sometime.
When I think of you, I think of a cartoon cloud hovering over your head, a private torrential downpour. I see you soaking wet, your entire being drooping, and you're always sick because you can't stay dry. Depressed by the bad weather, you cry yourself a little river, but the tears evaporate and form into another cloud that rains on you even more. You can't win.
It will be sad. You will never get the girl. You will not save the world. You will never find true love. You will not find a trustworthy friend. You will never be satisfied. You will never have enough. The grass could always be greener. The grass will always need mowing. Your days will be long and contain no fun. Your nights wil be lonely and not much else. You will always be waiting for better days that will never arrive. And you will most definitely never have peace of mind.
There will be days when you will collapse to your knees and screamingly plead your case to whatever might be listening. But The Thing Called God can't help you, and It won't. I think of heaven as being a radiant crystalline metropolis, and in the tallest sparkling skyscraper, The Mayor stays busy making deals behind a door with no knob. He's forever inaccessible, not taking calls at this time. And then I envision all the perfect blond angels, devoid of genitalia and feet, congregating and pointing and laughing at all of us down here, saying 'Those poor little things!' in between giggles. They will get a kick out of you.
We are more likely to answer or not answer your prayers than they. We will control your destiny and watch over you. Not gods or angels. Not the dead. Us. Men and women. Adults with tangled webs and hidden agendas. Former children.
We will allow you your needs but deny you your wants. We will see to it that any requirements for long-term happiness are kept just out of reach. If by some mistake you experience a sensation that resembles happiness, then by all means, embrace it for all it is worth. Make the most of it because we will not let it last.
Again, I'm sorry. It's true what they say. Life's not fair, especially for you. The only consolation I can offer is that the things you will be making amid all the loneliness and suffering will by far outlast your despair and our cruelty. Oru torture is temporary, your work is forever. With this in mind, we all win in the long run.
So on behalf of everyone that you will ever meet, I apologize in advance for every heartache we will cause. You're in for a rough time, kid. Consider yourself warned."
June 06, 2006
Celebration City
At one point, we stopped and got drinks, then Will was like, "Oh, we have to run!" So we did, our drinks going everywhere. I had like a quarter of my lemonade left when we got there, and on the way I had spilled another quarter on Joshua's back. Sorry! :P
We pulled into the... I have no idea what the word is. They have a big clifflike wall, and they spray water up onto it, and then they project onto the water. Yes, we ran into there, and there was a very patriotic show. And actually, it was very good, because it even made me feel a little patriotic.
The first half was what I hate about patriotic shows, which means a lot of flag stuff... "Oh my god, we have a flag... let's flip out... a flag..." and lots of random stuff like dog's playing frisbee, as if to say that family value's and picnics are unique to America. Then there was sort of an intermission of army, navy, air force, marine, and coast guard propaganda, the worst part of the show, even in terms of cinematic quality.
Then things got better; they loosened us up with some singing (Elvis, the Beatles, the Supremes, things everyone knows) and some dancing (Cotton Eyed Joe, The Hokie Pokie, The Electric Slide, the Macarena, the Chicken Dance, things everyone can do). I was in such a good mood I even tried the most challenging dance they had, the twist. The results were embarrassing, but it was dark. And Alex (little kid) could jump so far! It was amazing, he looked like a Jackrabbit in the Cha Cha Slide. He must practice that.
So I was in a good mood when they got to what any patriotic show should, in my opinion, be made up of; things in our history and culture that we should be proud of as Americans. This part was the shortest, but at least it was there. Best line in the show was,
"Mr. Gorbachev, tear down this wall!"
And I clapped, so did other people. Yay for History. About this time we saw some people we had talked to in front of the Ferris Wheel earlier. We recognized them by their bright red Cardinals outfits. The mother was a long time midwesterner, and visited Branson every year as a child. Her husband was Palestinian. They had the wonderful fortune to watch "Not Without my Daughter" on their wedding night... not the best choice, eh? :P But she laughed.
"No, he's Christian... so the biggest trouble I have with him is he want's me to name the kids like "Loufa" and I'm like, I'm not naming my daughter after a sponge. But his parents are Muslim and my parents are Jehova's Witness, so things do get interesting once in a while..."
Yes. That. That's what I've been looking for. Could it be I've found it where I never thought to look?
06-06-06 - The Onsite
June 05, 2006
West County Wimps
After all this, we still werent tired or sore. That shows what a short and flat river it was.
On the equally short hike, Alex and I held point the entire way, and we kept it at a very manageable pace. But everyone was crying and whining that they were sore and hungry and hot and tired and had to go to the bathroom, so we had to stop and wait every... eighth of a mile? About that. Bah. ;_;
Oh Canada... Will I survive long enough to get to you? I begin to wonder...
June 04, 2006
The Goose Girl
He loves her, but she loves another who loves nobody.
And her heart doesn't hurt, but her stomachs in a twisted knot.
She doesn't know where to go, because she's like the goose girl
Who puts too many eggs in one basket, and the basket throws itself
Off the cliff and into nowhere.
June 01, 2006
The Seven Heads
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Background
A Good and Valid Speech
Totally like whatever, you know?
In case you hadn't noticed,
it has somehow become uncool
to sound like you know what you're talking about?
Or believe strongly in what you're saying?
Invisible question marks and parenthetical (you know?)'s
have been attaching themselves to the ends of our sentences?
Even when those sentences aren't, like, questions? You know?
Declarative sentences -- so-called
because they used to, like, DECLARE things to be true
as opposed to other things which were, like, not -
have been infected by a totally hip
and tragically cool interrogative tone? You know?
Like, don't think I'm uncool just because I've noticed this;
this is just like the word on the street, you know?
It's like what I've heard?
I have nothing personally invested in my own opinions, okay?
I'm just inviting you to join me in my uncertainty?
What has happened to our conviction?
Where are the limbs out on which we once walked?
Have they been, like, chopped down
with the rest of the rain forest?
Or do we have, like, nothing to say?
Has society become so, like, totally...
I mean absolutely... You know?
That we've just gotten to the point where it's just, like...
whatever!
And so actually our disarticulation... ness
is just a clever sort of... thing
to disguise the fact that we've become
the most aggressively inarticulate generation
to come along since...
you know, a long, long time ago!
I entreat you, I implore you, I exhort you,
I challenge you: To speak with conviction.
To say what you believe in a manner that bespeaks
the determination with which you believe it.
Because contrary to the wisdom of the bumper sticker,
it is not enough these days to simply QUESTION AUTHORITY.
You have to speak with it, too.
© Taylor Mali 2005
Mortal Sins
- Wikipedia
Are they being serious? I guess that's the only way they can make sure people come to church...
Seven Deadly Sins
So these are what we have to watch out for:
Ego-fixations & deadly sins
The Enneagram types have also been correlated with the traditional Seven Deadly Sins plus two additional descriptors - 'deceit' and 'fear'. The '7 sins + 2' need to be understood in a much more specific meaning than usual.
- One – Anger
Anger as a frustration in working hard to do things right, while the rest of the world doesn't care about doing things right and doesn't appreciate the sacrifice and effort made.
- Two – Pride
Pride as a self-inflation of ego, in the sense of seeing themselves as indispensable to others - they have no needs yet the world needs them.
- Three – Deceit
Deceit in the misrepresentation of self by marketing and presenting an image valued by others rather than presenting an authentic self.
- Four – Envy
Envy of someone else reminds this individual that they can never be what the other person is, reawakening a sense of self-defectiveness.
- Five – Avarice
Avarice in the sense of hoarding resources in an attempt to minimize needs from a world that takes more than it gives, thus isolating oneself from the world.
- Six – Fear
Fear often in the form of a generalized anxiety that can't find an actual source of fear yet may wrongly identify one through projection, possibly seeing enemies and danger where there are none.
- Seven – Gluttony
Gluttony not in the sense of eating too much, but instead, of sampling a taste of everything the world has to offer (breadth) and not taking the time for richer experience (depth).
- Eight – Lust
Lust in the sense of wanting more of what this individual finds stimulating to the point that most people would feel overwhelmed and say too much.
- Nine – Sloth
Sloth or laziness in discovering a personal agenda and instead choosing the less problematic strategy of just going along with others' agenda.